Hello my sweet friends! How was your week? This week FLEW by. We have been busy prepping for Thanksgiving week and then immediately after, OUR TRIP TO DISNEY!! I cannot wait!! Lily Grace made a list of all the things she wants to do at Disney and I am blown away by how much she remembers from our last trip there.
Today's post will be my last post for two weeks-- we will be busy soaking up all the family time! I will see you back here December 4th.
Today I am sharing a post cancer/chemo update, and I am so happy to report that it is filled with all happy news!
Mentally/Spiritually/
All is well and smooth sailing on the cancer front! I won't lie, I've been a little stressed with going back to work full time AND grad school, while also being a mom-- but that isn't related to cancer. As far as cancer/health related things go, I truly am just so grateful every single day to wake up and feel well. I am happy to report that I am recovered from pneumonia, and back to feeling as close to my old self as I have felt in a long time. Feeling well physically makes all the difference in my mental health too.
Sometimes, out of the blue, I get hit with an overwhelming wave of emotion where I think "I can't believe that happened" and I cry. It is never a feeling of "woe is me," but more a feeling of disbelief. Feeling like "I can't believe I went through that. I can't believe my family went through that." And then... I always come away from those emotions genuinely feeling like our little family is stronger because of what we went through together. Looking back, now that it's "over", it's crazy to believe it really happened.
In the beginning of treatment I had been seeing a therapist to help with all the emotions from being diagnosed and going through treatment. To be honest though, the therapist and I weren't really a great fit and I felt like it wasn't as beneficial as it could've been. I stopped going after 4 sessions. After my girls weekend with my two best friends, I'm thinking about maybe looking for another therapist. Because everything was such a whirlwind, I never had a chance to process it. I don't want that to come back to haunt me in the future.
Physically
Like I said above, I am physically feeling the best I have felt since this whole cancer debacle began. I am still not running, but I feel like my energy is back and my physical fitness is slowly getting there too. The neuropathy has decreased significantly. The muscle myalgia is minimal, and I only needed my Tramadol 1 day this entire month. I haven't been taking it, or having the prescription refilled, yet my insurance felt the need to send me a note telling me if I tried to refill it between now and January, I'd get denied-- isn't that interesting?? I guess technically it's an opiod so they have to be really strict about how many refills you get. I'm very grateful I don't need it anymore.
I have enough hair that I even blow it dry some mornings! Haha!
You're probably looking at this picture and thinking "really? You blow that dry?" but I don't want to put my wig on a wet head, and it takes too long to wait for it to air dry!
All in all, it feels good to feel like myself again! I am looking forward to the day I can run again-- that feels like the last big thing I'm missing out on. I have a feeling January 2024 will be a great time to start that back up!
